So I sat down to write a list of sorts, my top five sort of things, etc but what really tugged at me was this: my gratitude for where I am. So lets go with it. Maybe it is a bit personal and deeper than my average post but I strive to be authentic here so this is what I am leaving you with on this wonderful Friday.
Do you ever feel yourself changing? Not in a way that you have decided upon yourself but truly, organically, changing as if your soul was carrying you? And not just a small change but something that makes you actually look at the world differently. A new chapter, perhaps? Or a new story entirely?
I've been feeling and thinking and dreaming and realizing that I want this metamorphosis more than I thought I would. Somehow a change so great isn't scary, not at all. Its beautiful. Like you're overlooking a waterfall or standing small between two mountains, a gaspingly great kind of beautiful.
Its strange to think of how large this feels inside, how much I feel a tugging on my heart and mind and soul and at the same time realize how much I appear the same, on the outside. But on the inside, oh the inside, I feel like the woman that I want to be, wanted to be from the beginning.
I know that it isn't of myself and I thank the Lord for bringing me here. For knowing that I would be here, be content, and at peace before I could even fathom. He's amazing like that.
And the words that won't leave my head: It is well with my soul.