Change

So I sat down to write a list of sorts, my top five sort of things, etc but what really tugged at me was this: my gratitude for where I am.  So lets go with it.  Maybe it is a bit personal and deeper than my average post but I strive to be authentic here so this is what I am leaving you with on this wonderful Friday. 

Do you ever feel yourself changing?  Not in a way that you have decided upon yourself but truly, organically, changing as if your soul was carrying you?  And not just a small change but something that makes you actually look at the world differently.  A new chapter, perhaps?  Or a new story entirely?

I've been feeling and thinking and dreaming and realizing that I want this metamorphosis more than I thought I would.  Somehow a change so great isn't scary, not at all.  Its beautiful.  Like you're overlooking a waterfall or standing small between two mountains, a gaspingly great kind of beautiful.

Its strange to think of how large this feels inside, how much I feel a tugging on my heart and mind and soul and at the same time realize how much I appear the same, on the outside.  But on the inside, oh the inside, I feel like the woman that I want to be, wanted to be from the beginning.

I know that it isn't of myself and I thank the Lord for bringing me here.  For knowing that I would be here, be content, and at peace before I could even fathom.  He's amazing like that.

And the words that won't leave my head: It is well with my soul.

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